Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Ttc 1 Week Before Period

greet well from school

I sit now in the school and have three hours of computer science in front of me .... I'm pretty much at the end .... I can not write properly last time. everything makes me unhappy, I'm by myself terribly sick .... and I can not .... I hope and despair, and actually I can not find words for it all .... I despise myself and can only shake your head about me, I'm just to throw up .... I do not know how to say it all ... I'm afraid and I fear permanently and the other, I am angry and feel hatred.
I'm sorry. I am disgusting .... and now I'm crying right now or not, I have to pull myself together .... have recently revived more often the feeling to cry at least internally but also physically, and yet I feel so disgusting .... and wrong .... oh well maybe I should watch in the classroom to which I have but little pleasure .... hmm ... I'm waiting .... I wait all the time that what happened again .... and I'm thinking and want to hit and scream and much more ... but I can not and I can not .... khsearhkKRAHHHHHHH ashdiflklhilfe ........ I sdfaöiwehfasldfj Heufler ksdjlgfeklichlilhljeöwijw23o8ruijsdfnklwölkejroiÖJKFSDMFN LIUHJNÖDOFIJEWÖLASKNDFSLJKDBSDKLJVGBSDVKJSDNBAKJSDFHJSLEÖIFJHSEÖIFHASÖLDKFHEISLHEFLKDHFELISHFLISEFHSNDCVBVUHBRIOU ksjdifejselfjn v krah .... help ... I can not .... I write only scraps .... today during english language schools I've also what gekutzelt .... lubricated .... not written ....
i am going to die of pain
i can not live in this world
help me and free me
take me away!!
i want to be kind of blind
i do not want to see
and think and feel .... i want to kill myself
free me! i can not live here
i can not bear the pain,
cut me and take my live and my blood

well, but never mind ... I'm just a little break ....

Friday, April 3, 2009

Salwar Bra Without Panty

what to

the written exams are around. I stood for math, computer science, English and religion. if I'm lucky I have not spoken in a test, unless the foreign auditor draws me ... well ... but this has so while still ne.
I'm actually quite pleased that the ABI is over now ... So at least the ugly part .... but oh well ... really glad I'm not ... I'm feeling not so great ... well ... no matter ....
in next time it goes with so some more ... eg planning the wedding on and so ... well ...
wanted to write again ... strange ... abi although actually it seems somehow important, important as it seems to me not again ... still makes you worry so ... Well what the hell ....
sry if I have not written while ne ... if anyone here reads :-)

oh yes, the tests were quite ok to good, and I thank for you for praying.